Musings

Is it only natural that once in a while I feel like I'm not really itching to jump right back into a full time job? I've been mildly bored lately but am otherwise none too excited about getting back into the rat race. Maybe it was have to sit in rush hour traffic today that brought these feelings to the forefront. I have health insurance until sometime next year as part of my severance package. That's one less thing to worry about and thus affords me the luxury of the fantasy of not having a Real Job for a while. I'm enjoying the freedom to (generally) get up when I want to, sit around in glorified pajamas all day, and not worry about putting on makeup.

"All television is educational television.The question is: what is it teaching?" -Nicholas Johnson

Sometimes I think about becoming a documentary filmaker. (I realize that this is not a very practical thing, but hey, it's my fantasy). I got the chance to work on one last April and, despite the depressing subject matter, I really enjoyed the experience. I was lucky and had a wonderfully talented producer. She guided our team to deliver something of quality and vision (a vision that matched what I had in mind during my weeks of research). We had the support of the station brass. I was able to use my illustrious (according to former co-workers) research skills , among other talents, to help create something that I was more proud of having worked on that than on anything else in my life.
I can't deny that the subject matter- the Holocaust- is/was important to me because of what members of my own family went through during WWII. We were able to illuminate the experiences of the liberators of the Nazi concentrations camps for the audience in our DMA (and anyone who wants to order it on VHS or DVD). Knowing that I was able to use skills from one area of my life to help deliver a message that is important to me*- that the Holocaust did happen, there are witnesses to the horrors who are still alive to share their stories, as well as their own photographic evidence, of what they found when they arrived at Dachau, Buchenwald, Auschwitz, and every other camp- it was like something in my life came full circle. Maybe I wouldn't make the best social worker or teacher or doctor. Television is a powerful medium.







*while this is very important to me, it had always felt like it belonged to the part of myself that I checked at the door when I went to work.....

Old Times

I just got back from a meeting at my former place of employment. Brief explanation- I was the co-coordinator of volunteers for a large yearly expo that we put on and since I have nothing else to do right now I figured that I could still help them out. The organizer of the expo is one of my favorite people at the station, as was my co-coordinator. I get another chance to stroll down memory lane in a week or so when I have another meeting there.
It was weird going back. You have to sign in (security is tighter at TV stations since the big anthrax scares a few years ago) and I had to wait until someone came and got me. Odd. It was good to see everyone. Many people asked if my presence meant that I was returning to work there. Sadly, I am not. It is nice to be missed though. And its only been a month. It was kind of annoying having to repeat over and over the answer to the question "what have you been up to?" (The stock answer I decided on for today (besides the obvious "looking for a new job") was "doing some stuff around the house, relaxing a bit, getting mundane things, like doctors appointment, taken care of".
It was odd seeing my old desk, all dark and lonely. I found an Abslout ad still tacked to my cube wall that I'd accidentally left behind and took it back home with me (I have collected them since I was 12).
People kept telling me that I look like I've lost weight. I had to agree with them because I've dropped a clothing size since I stopped working at the station because there is no junk food sitting around my house every day like there is in an office environment where people will use any excuse to bring/order/buy food. I once worked a summer job at the admissions office of my college. On the first day all of us new summer hires were welcomed with a spread of bagels, pastries, and other goodies. We were told that Admissions was celebrating our arrival. It was a nice gesture but we all knew that our first morning as tour guides was merely an excuse for a food orgy of some sort. At the station people were always bringing in donuts, especially Munchkins from Dunkin Donuts (since this is New England, where if you swing a dead cat you hit either a Dunkin Donuts or a CVS).
I definitely don't miss the rush hour traffic, which I got caught in the beginning of.

Phone Interview

The phone interview went well. The deputy director said that he was using the phone interviews to separate the wheat from the chaff. I guess that makes me wheat.

I have an in-person interview on Tuesday up in Boston.

Help!?!

Yay! I have a phone interview on Thursday with a community agency in the Boston area!

OK, small problem with this- I was just checking email and there is one from my future interviewer saying that:


Thank you for applying for the position of ______ at the ___ ___ ___ ____. While your experience and education are impressive, we believe you are not the appropriate candidate for this position.

We will keep you resume on file should other positions become available.

Thank you again for your application.

Sincerely,

xxxx xxxx
Deputy Director


I'm a bit confused. How shall I proceed? I've been playing phone tag with his assistant since Friday, July 22, which is also the date on the email above. Odd. I guess I'll go ahead with the phone interview and not mention the email.
Not sure how I feel about working for a place that doesn't seem to have its act together.

Noon

I was a good goal-oriented slacker after all this morning. I TiVoed (TiVo'd?) the end of Police Academy 5 and a rerun of ER and went for a half hour walk.

10 am

This morning's progression is not being helped by the fact that one of my favorite movies from childhood, Police Academy 5: Assignment Miami Beach is on Comedy Central.

Slacker

I'm 25 days into my journey to the Land of Unemployment and have noticed that I am finding myself a bit more deserving of the title Involuntary Slacker.
I set my alarm every day with all the best intentions of getting up and going to work out and then coming home and being effective at my job search and freelance attempts.
The alarm goes off and I then think to myself "I don't really need to get up yet...." and I reset it for way later. Or I do get up, shuffle out to the TV room and decide that seeing what TiVo has in store for me is more compelling than going to the gym.
This obviously delays the start of my day for a bit. I'm now, as my mom used to say "getting my days and nights confused". The later I sleep in the later I fall asleep. Too bad its not because I've been living by the KISS credo of "rock and roll all nite and party every day" but most of my friends have day jobs. It's really just because I've had less on my plate recently.
Maybe soon I'll find something to renew my energy and circadian rhythm soon.

Attempt #2

I had to do my weekly call in to the unemployment hotline. Thankfully this week all it involved was entering a bunch of numbers into the IVR system at the DLT. Sometimes it's good when things are boring.

Faux Pas

I have got to stop asking after people, or rather, their pets.

When I first met my friend Eric I was introduced to his adorable basset hound, Molly. I saw him about two weeks later and asked how Molly was doing. "She died" was the response I got. Unbeknownst to me the dog was 14 and in failing health. Soon after he got a new dog, another basset hound.
I was at his house for a BBQ today and asked his parents why they did not bring along their Ben, their basset hound. His mother's reply "Ben died two weeks ago". I said I was sorry to hear that and mentally slapped myself for asking after Ben and at the same time thinking "How could this happen to me twice...and with the same family?"

The Peanut Gallery
Meanwhile my friend, K, pipes up from the background "That's why I told you that my dog had recently died. To prevent the awkwardness when you asked how the dog was doing" (to be fair her dog had been having some health issues for a while and was elderly in dog years)].

I am weak

I gave in.
I have bought two pairs of shoes this week. In my defense they were both on sales. One was a pair of sneakers on sale at Nordstom's and, as we ladies know, Nordstom's almost never has things on sale (not like Macy's with a sale every other weekend). The other was a pair of pool shoes from DSW (the best shoe outlet ever!) to replace my totally gross and worn down pair.
I also splurged on some batteries and cleaning supplies at Target.

This Time

Today, despite feeling like crap from my allergies (which a long walk outside for exercise did not help) I cleaned the living room, transferred a bunch of CDs into iTunes, did the dishes, and vacuumed a bit. I am much more effective during this bout of unemployment than during my last one in 2001.

When I first moved here in October of 2001 I had no job. I moved to New England because a friend from college had gotten a job here and I liked the character of this small (by NYC comparison) city in the Ocean State. After being at college in a rural but progressive small city I wasn't quite ready to jump back to the NY metro rat race.

The apartment had practically no furniture. As the cold New England winter approached I spent my days sitting at the makeshift desk set up (milk crate, CPU topped with the monitor, and a box that the keyboard sat on) searching for jobs online. I eventually began volunteering at the local preservation society working on the Industrial Buildings Survey that they were in the midst of. At least that got me out of the house for a few hours each day. But it was still so depressing and frustrating and tiring to not have a 'real job'. I had a few temp jobs, but those were, well, temporary. Health insurance soon became an issue, as my mom's health insurance would no longer cover me. I decided to see if I could find anything, even retail, that might give me benefits. I lucked out and found a job at a local pharmacy. I didn't love working there but they had some of the best health coverage around. And I learned how to run a photo lab. Eventually I found my 'real job' at a local TV station. And now, here I am, writing this blog and hoping that I am entertaining my audience with my wit and style and daily frustrations of the Unemployed Life.

Family Jobs

When I was in NY not long ago my aunt asked me if I wouldn't like to learn about the real estate business from her. I think she's great at it, but I don't want to be a realtor.

She also told me about a job at a nonprofit in northern NJ. It's only part time as an admin assistant. And it's in the suburbs. I don't live there and don't wish to. I like where I grew up but it has changed so much that it drives me a bit batty now to go back there and see the new chain stores and McMansions that have popped up. I guess you can't really go home again.

Then she thought I might want to work for her and her partner. She talked about it with her partner and despite my aunt's fears of nepotism her partner was all for it. The business partner felt that it would be good to have a family member "watching out for the business". That's lovely and I'm honored, but, once again, I don't live there. It would have to be financially worth it for me to move back to the NY metro area. (Her youngest son is about to get his real estate license, what's he...chopped liver?).

It is very hard to say no to her once she's got her mind set on something. This is part of what makes her a great real esstate broker.

Customer service issue, resolved

I just got a call form teh DLT apologizing about the hang up earlier today. Wow. A state agency giving a shit about customer service, that's like unheard of in this state.

Interview

The interview went well. As usual I am overqualified for a secretarial position. I really like the company, but am hesitant. Not to kvetch, but I don't want to have to pick up anyone's dry cleaning or get lunch for everyone but me. That sucks. I don't want to waste my talents on that.

Some people have pointed out that a job is a job. This is true. And that we all have to do some unpleasant things in life (like working retail on Xmas Eve, but that'sanother story for another time). Work is where we spend a majority of our waking hours and I don't want to spend that time doing things that do not seem as though they will help me climb the ladder of success. I'm trying to think long-term here.

The problem is that I like this company. I believe in what they do and have long wanted to be a part of something like that. But how much growth is there really in a firm of nine people (including assistants)? Growing form receptionist to office manager is not my idea of real growth potential. Growth from receptionist to office manager to executive is more of what I have in mind.

The Muzak plays on

The screwed up to the amount of $32. The state took taxes out of my check, even though in both my onlie application and actual paperwork I elected to have taxes withheld. And then the bitch hung up on me when I tried to ask a question about something on the application.

Muzak

I'm on hold. I have been for 19 minutes and 33 seconds. And every time the Muzak stops I get excited and think a person will finally answer, but nope, its just the Muzak changing over to an unpleasant voice reminding me that I can file for unemployment benefits online.

I had to call the darn Department of Labor and Training because my unemployment check came today (a good thing). Unfortunately it's not the amount that they promised me in the official paperwork (a bad thing).
I had to call them yesterday and ended up being transferred to a DLT rep (Tele-Serve wasn't working right or was missing some of my info or something). I of course waited forever yesterday as well. And then was finally connected to someone to whom English was not a first or possibly second language. These people are making the airlines look good.

Gotta run...Someone actually picked up!

Tomorrow, tomorrow...

I have a job interview tomorrow morning! It's for a not so exciting Admin Assistant position but is at a local real estate development company that is known for its adaptive reuse of historic structures.
I suppose you could say that Historic Preservation is my 'cause of choice'. I volunteer at the local preservation society and almost went to grad school for it. I'd like to eventually take what I learn in media and marketing and work as a consultant to preservation non-profits, as some of them really need help with getting their message out (I consider the Preservation Society of Newport County a success at this).
The only thing is that the job description on Monster says that the applicant must have recent secretarial training. I don't really have any. At my last job I answered the phone at the front desk when the receptionist went to lunch (some really funny stories forthcoming about that aspect) and occasionally my boss would ask me how to spell something. That's about as close to secretarial experience that I have. And I can't type very well (spellcheck is my friend).

Biding my time

I'm trying very hard to spend my time efficiently during the day. This means filing for unemployment, getting around to making at appointment at Lee Hecht Harrison (part of the severance agreement is career guidance or something), and working on a few small writing projects. I've been pretty successful and not spent too much time goofing off and watching TiVo'd episodes of the Gilmore Girls and West Wing.

I spent last Friday running around doing various errands, including bringing my roommate to an eye doctor appointment because he was not able to drive after the 2 hour test that his doctor had scheduled. We were the youngest people in that office by 40 years., as they are mainly specialists that deal with eye diseases at this practice (he was sent there by the regular optometrist). It is apparently rare for people younger than 40 to have serious eye diseases. So while he was being examined and tested I was forced to sit in the waiting room and listen to conversations about the following (and I'm not making these up)-

• how what "these kids" do today is not dancing, they couldn't do the Lindy Hop or the Charleston if they their lives depended on it
• the etiquette (for lack of a better term) on getting from the wheelchair to the toilet
• how one senior gentleman was there to see the "Polish lady doctor", he also had a Polish ear doctor for his hearing who was excited to hear about the man's Polish eye doctor and wanted to meet her since they were both Polish
• various detailed discussions about diabetes

Now I have time for my budding photography hobby

$$$

I sat down with my financial advisor this afternoon. Between the severance package and my unemployment check I should be OK for a little while.....if I spend very carefully. No more gratuitous shoe shopping for me.